I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately (or should I say thinking). I got many questions for you Jehovah.
I know you have provided answers for us in that book they call the Bible but truth be told; they at times not quite enough. I cannot do much feeling like this. Inadequate. I have done every possible thing there is to address how I feel but it seems as though it is not yet enough. I get like every time the hard core questions to life come to mind and swam me like bees to a thief. One very often asked question has to do directly with you-a number of them actually.
Who are you?
Well, this is perhaps the most useful and also the most hopeless of questions I being me can ever ask you. Why? Well, because it is both a believers’ power against disbelief in your right to rule not just the universe but also and very much his mind. Or his belief thereof…
The question of “who are you” is best left alone. But for my indulgence and mine alone; you God are Jehovah, the only true creator and master of the universe. You are He who we should address praises for the creations on the earth and the universe itself (Math 6:9). It once easy for me to live the question at that but then, as you well know; as we men grow we tend to do one of the following; leave the question, ask and get the answer, expand the answer( mostly for self-glory). I happened to be one of those who liked asking questions, getting the answer and expand upon it-mostly because it feels good to me. True to this preference ( I dare not say nature) I found myself asking the question: Besides the Biblical answers to this question-believe you me they are the most valuable answers-who is Jehovah?
I would very much love to goat and say I found the answer but verily I did not.
Instead of answers to his billion dollar question-literally- I got myself confronted by a horde of quite devilish questions I found myself not quite ready if not unwilling to answer. Is Jehovah a psychological invention of both the primarily single God worshiping Egyptians and Jews of old? Is he a desert peoples answer to a need to address a need for a person powerful enough to enable them the strength found a homeland and protect them from forces sure enough in their power and ability to wipe them off the face of the Earth? Better still is he modern man’s so called powerful alien being who happened to decide to plant and a colony of feeble intelligence and leave it to grow as an un-attended experiment and then prove itself worthy enough to join the rest of universal civilization and intelligence very much alive out there in the universe?
I do not see any of the above questions of much interest to a true Christian. They can actually prove destructive but are they meant never to be asked?
Did the Devil plant them into this my brain and hoped they would be blasphemous enough for you to forsake me as you did Israel and therefore leave to die and perish as he himself is meant to? I do not know the answer to this but I do conclude that it is a question very much tormenting the minds of those who wish and are willing to serve no other Master of the Universe but you.
As for me; I do believe you are out there…I have verily seen you work in my short life. Not in miracles of cause but right in my heart, in my family and very much so in my congregation and the world as is. I have faced famine, eviction, hopelessness, some grief and mortal danger: all this only to find you mercifully pulling me through at the other side. I am looking forward to a world where you will rule directly and let me live the life you intended our father and mother Adam and Eve the day you declared all creations perfect. I not sure of my faith and abilities but should I so be found indeed fit, I will verily enjoy the New World.
I hope I do.